My Lovely Corner

Hihi..long time no See..
so sorry my corner..
i long time din accompany U n write anythg here..
coz i Very tired..
every night come Back juz on my Facebook..
i really need some rest time..
my BRO juz viewed my blog..
bt nthg special..and he kept saying tat all SAD SAD SAD...
bt since i started Working my Life is full of Sadness..
ohh ya..today i kept feeling dizzy n Headache..
my BRO went out n bought me a "Minyak Angin"..
so touching.. T_T
anythy else???
erm...somebody made me so disappointed..
shit!! don wan to talk abt her..
tat's all..
tata...

stupid..

im a stupid girl..
since this few months..
i did many stupid things..
i regret..
i regret tat i treat u nice..
i don wan..
i don wan to treat u nice..
nobody knw tat im crying nw..
juz coz of u..
im tired..im disappointed..im hurt...

tired wit my life..

i started coughing one week b4 tan sri's bday(13th mac)..
had to attend the choir practice..
had to work til late..
bt i wont 4gt to acc u..
cant slp well at night..
cough cough cough..
pls go away..
i saw u left comment at her status..
u care abt her..
bt u never left any comment on my status..
sad..
i cant feel ur love..
cant feel it anymore..

btw..i knw many frens in choir group..
carmen..eva..ivy..tracy..nessa..jack..sean..
all r nice..
hope to meet u all again.. =)

chinese new year 2010

full wit sadness..
totally sad..
my dear fren's bro passed away..
i never feel happy n smile at all..
somemore..quarrel wit my dear..
i reali feel tat i m nt tat important for him..
his frens r more important than me..
reali feeling hurt..
by the way..i reali lost control n scold him without control myself..
feel so sorry to him..
bt i did tat coz he cheat me!
damn hate abt tat..like a stupid!
n i reali jealous tat he acc his frens..
he never spend long time to acc me..
bt he wil feel nt enough to acc his frens..
i reali feeling jealous..especially coz of tat girl...
tat's a truth bt he never admit it..mayb he cant feel it..so made me non stop to cry every night..
he never knw it..he din give me any response when i said cant be wit him anymore..
nw we din decide to break up..bt i can feel tat the feeling r different as b4..
the way he msg..the way he talk..i can feel tat..
n i m so hurt..i cant slp wel every night wit my tears..
nobody can read my sadness..he juz thk tat wat i said reali hurt him..
bt he never thk abt me..my heart is bleeding..

useless

m i useless?
since 15th jan til nw i stil cant handle my job as well..
today my sifu on leave..
so i had to face it..
bt i juz feeling helpless..
i reali try to handle it..
my sifu always worry tat he cant teach me well..
bt juz my problem..i din learn it well..
he always back me up..reali nice..
bt i juz knw to make him disappointed..
how come i wil b like tat?
hate myself!! damn hate!!
a stupid girl...

money!! money!! money!! i need u..

this month salary = RM960
rebonding = RM130
kfc for my sisters = RM30
rental = RM150
expenses for daily life = RM180
hav to give my mum..
buy new clothes for my sister,brother n mummy..
how come i gt money to buy new clothes for myself??
where can i gt the money??
can i gt some part time to gt the money??
reali hope tat can give more to my mum..
so tat they can live without any tension abt money.. =(

staying wit relatives

reali need my family..
don like to stay here..
wat's the meaning of relatives?
yes..i hav no car nw..no money also..
so..everytimes wan to go out hav to borrow car from them..
bt no one time they r willing to borrow..

besides tat, my aunt..always say sumthg tat make me nt happy..
reali damn hate!!
always say me lazy..
bt her daughty and son r the most lazy..
reali angry abt tat..
i always help her to wash dishes..sweep the floor..n some more..
m i lazy?
they never do anythg..r they very good??

#%**^$#@%*# wtf!
her son reali rude!!!
always use my laptop din gt my permission..
many times i ask him don put on the bed without the cooling pad..
i tot he has no ears..
never listen wat i said..and always suddenly hit me push me..
ish!! hate him!! wat a rude cousin!!

GOD!! pls gimme money..so tat i can move out and buy a car..
reali sad to stay here..help me... :'(