chinese new year 2010

full wit sadness..
totally sad..
my dear fren's bro passed away..
i never feel happy n smile at all..
somemore..quarrel wit my dear..
i reali feel tat i m nt tat important for him..
his frens r more important than me..
reali feeling hurt..
by the way..i reali lost control n scold him without control myself..
feel so sorry to him..
bt i did tat coz he cheat me!
damn hate abt tat..like a stupid!
n i reali jealous tat he acc his frens..
he never spend long time to acc me..
bt he wil feel nt enough to acc his frens..
i reali feeling jealous..especially coz of tat girl...
tat's a truth bt he never admit it..mayb he cant feel it..so made me non stop to cry every night..
he never knw it..he din give me any response when i said cant be wit him anymore..
nw we din decide to break up..bt i can feel tat the feeling r different as b4..
the way he msg..the way he talk..i can feel tat..
n i m so hurt..i cant slp wel every night wit my tears..
nobody can read my sadness..he juz thk tat wat i said reali hurt him..
bt he never thk abt me..my heart is bleeding..