chinese new year 2010

full wit sadness..
totally sad..
my dear fren's bro passed away..
i never feel happy n smile at all..
somemore..quarrel wit my dear..
i reali feel tat i m nt tat important for him..
his frens r more important than me..
reali feeling hurt..
by the way..i reali lost control n scold him without control myself..
feel so sorry to him..
bt i did tat coz he cheat me!
damn hate abt tat..like a stupid!
n i reali jealous tat he acc his frens..
he never spend long time to acc me..
bt he wil feel nt enough to acc his frens..
i reali feeling jealous..especially coz of tat girl...
tat's a truth bt he never admit it..mayb he cant feel it..so made me non stop to cry every night..
he never knw it..he din give me any response when i said cant be wit him anymore..
nw we din decide to break up..bt i can feel tat the feeling r different as b4..
the way he msg..the way he talk..i can feel tat..
n i m so hurt..i cant slp wel every night wit my tears..
nobody can read my sadness..he juz thk tat wat i said reali hurt him..
bt he never thk abt me..my heart is bleeding..

useless

m i useless?
since 15th jan til nw i stil cant handle my job as well..
today my sifu on leave..
so i had to face it..
bt i juz feeling helpless..
i reali try to handle it..
my sifu always worry tat he cant teach me well..
bt juz my problem..i din learn it well..
he always back me up..reali nice..
bt i juz knw to make him disappointed..
how come i wil b like tat?
hate myself!! damn hate!!
a stupid girl...

money!! money!! money!! i need u..

this month salary = RM960
rebonding = RM130
kfc for my sisters = RM30
rental = RM150
expenses for daily life = RM180
hav to give my mum..
buy new clothes for my sister,brother n mummy..
how come i gt money to buy new clothes for myself??
where can i gt the money??
can i gt some part time to gt the money??
reali hope tat can give more to my mum..
so tat they can live without any tension abt money.. =(

staying wit relatives

reali need my family..
don like to stay here..
wat's the meaning of relatives?
yes..i hav no car nw..no money also..
so..everytimes wan to go out hav to borrow car from them..
bt no one time they r willing to borrow..

besides tat, my aunt..always say sumthg tat make me nt happy..
reali damn hate!!
always say me lazy..
bt her daughty and son r the most lazy..
reali angry abt tat..
i always help her to wash dishes..sweep the floor..n some more..
m i lazy?
they never do anythg..r they very good??

#%**^$#@%*# wtf!
her son reali rude!!!
always use my laptop din gt my permission..
many times i ask him don put on the bed without the cooling pad..
i tot he has no ears..
never listen wat i said..and always suddenly hit me push me..
ish!! hate him!! wat a rude cousin!!

GOD!! pls gimme money..so tat i can move out and buy a car..
reali sad to stay here..help me... :'(

started working life

4th january 2010..my 1st working day..
luckily he accompanied me to take my breakfast..
and sent me go to bank..
i work in Credit Department..
read the rules and staff benefits whole day..
reali felt sleepy and almost fall asleep..
and knw all the colleagues..bt cant remember their name..haha..

mandy evan jess shirley(soo) nana nathan
ah lu faridah mr.lim(oic) wendy firdaus(soo)

5th january 2010..2nd working day..
this morning my dear prepared breakfast for me..
how a nice boyfriend..
today i wil started to learn how to prepare the letter of offer and extension letter offer..
my 'sifu' called MANDY..
she is willing to teach me..
since the day i started working..
i feel tired and sleepy..
coz hav to wake up early and take the bus..

6th january 2010..3rd day..
haiz..i reali tired..
today had to prepare breakfast myself..
eat 3 pieces of breads..
yuck!! don like..and my stomach felt nt well..
today did some LO and at the last..
'sifu' teached me file the documents..
both of us arranged all the documents..
we were so tired as after do some exercises..

7th january 2010..4th day..
3 pieces of breads again.. =(
today i waited long times..
then i knw tat my 'sifu' din come..
very pity today..had to handle her job..
i did 3 LO and extension..walked here walked there..
luckily evan and nathan helped me..evan is so nice..
after briefing i went home d..
nt enough to slp..
all of my times spend in working..i juz wan to spend some times to acc my dear..
bt he doesn't knw abt tat..
he tot tat i wan to do other things..as play fb and else..
i cried..i asked him tat izzit he reali don knw y i stil don wan to slp..
his answer..made me disappointed..
i reali miss him lotz..everyday juz thk abt him..worry abt him..

4 days worked..so tired..bt reali gt to learn many things..
bt i m new staff..so don gt to take leave for my chinese new year.. =(
hope tat tml (the 5th day) gt to bac home on time..
let me take a rest..

圣诞节

这几天..一直和宝贝在一起..觉得很开心..但花费很大..

这几天一直为见工的事忙..

面试真的很紧张..因为男友在外面等我..而被interviewer说了一些让我不爽的话..

平安夜傍晚..我们准备要出门时突然接到经理打来叫我去第二次面试..

我们匆匆忙忙的赶去..当时我们已经第一时间赶去..那个经理还说我迟..

还说下次上班也要带男友一起来吗..我真的很不爽..

面试之后我们搭lrt去midvalley..

我去拿回我的鞋..之后我们要想想我们的平安夜大餐..

我们走了很久..就打算吃sushi...

宝贝怕我饿坏..特地帮我叫了一个set..有饭有汤有蛋和鱼排...

而他就只吃sushi...

之后我们去选购给妹妹的生日礼物..

之后就回家去了..

虽然没有去倒数..不过有宝贝陪已经足够了..嘻嘻..

第二天=圣诞节

我们只待在家..对着电脑一整天..

今年的圣诞节超闷!!

圣诞节快到了!!

想了好几天..都想不到该准备什么礼物送给他..
那晚突然听到表姐的朋友给的意见也不错..
嘻嘻..突然很兴奋的..想立刻就去准备..
前几天试做了巧克力..我们走了很远路才来到一间不错的店..
那天,午餐没吃..到了店里就晕晕了..还拿着laptop和背着一大袋衣服..
我们不停找着模型和一些材料..
付钱了还要走一大段路回家..当时的我觉得走回家的路好像走不完..没有尽头..
回家冲凉休息了一下就立刻和表姐动手做起了巧克力..
我们买了白巧克力和黑巧克力..和一个不是很喜欢的模型..
我们煮了很久..巧克力终于溶了..倒进了模型..
我们分别弄了整颗黑色,整颗白色和一半黑一半白的巧克力..
白色巧克力比较甜..黑色巧克力比较苦..怪怪的..
这几天又再想..怎样才能弄得更好吃更漂亮..
还在process当中..明天回kl了再去找一些比较美的模型和一些能配巧克力的食品..
希望我能成功!! 希望他喜欢这份礼物.. :-)